Double Digits

What a difference a day makes.

Let me start off by saying that I am so grateful today is day 10 and not day 1. Yesterday was a tough day. But I got through it, one hour at a time.

This morning I had the rare treat of having a sitter come over to watch the littlest one; I had a parent-teacher conference early this morning at the elementary school. I asked the sitter how late she could stay, and it turns out she could stay just long enough for me to sneak out to a meeting after the conference and before coming home.

The conference (which went well) was from 8:10am to 9:00am. Then the AA meeting  was from 9:30am to 10:30am. This was my third in-person meeting ever and my favorite so far. It was a womens only meeting a few minutes from my house. They meet every Thursday morning.

I can’t say how happy I am I made it through yesterday and didn’t cave to the overwhelming urge. And today I feel much, much better. The meeting was just what I needed this morning. It was so nice to get a break and get out to connect with others who are striving for the same thing.

Can I Get A Little Help?

It’s so hard to find a reliable, consistently available and overall quality babysitter.

Ever since our previous sitter left due to being offered a full-time childcare position, I haven’t had any luck finding anyone with staying power.

Since my youngest isn’t old enough for preschool yet, and we have no family in the area, it is important to have someone to rely on when I need a little help.

Of the past 4 potential sitters, one was looking for full time work and landed a job, one had horrible allergies to our pets, one couldn’t handle the work load from school and babysitting, and the most recent one – today – just told me she was offered a full time job.

This is why the online meetings are my saving grace. They are the only meeting I can realistically get to until I  have a reliable sitter again.

Because of this, I haven’t been to the gym since…. (don’t judge) June. I know. It’s really bad.

Back to care.com I go to find yet another caregiver.

I need to remind myself that this is temporary; my youngest will soon be potty trained and old enough for preschool before I know it. And this will be a worry of the past.

In the meantime, I need a little help.