Seems the only time I make to write here is when I a) have a babysitter and b) have some extra time before or after a meeting.
Today it is a little extra time before a meeting. I usually go to a noon meeting near my house on Mondays, but today I am going to try a new meeting, a little further away at 1:00pm.
I am currently three-and-a-half months sober (again). A little over one year ago I went to my first AA meeting. Now, one year later, I definitely feel like I’m on more solid ground. Did I want to do AA? Never; not really. But I ran out of options and was tired after 10 plus years of battling this craziness.
I’m still struggling with my concept of a higher power, or something greater than myself. I have done step 1 and 2 with my sponsor, and currently I am finalizing the rewriting of the 3rd step prayer, so it is something I can say and believe.
This is what I have:
I offer myself to the Universe, to build with me and do with me as it will. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better understand my purpose. Take away my difficulties, so I can help those who still suffer. May I find sanity and serenity for the rest of my life that daily surrender gives me.
I also found this one that I am fond of:
I have tried to control the uncontrollable for far too long.
I acknowledge that my life is unmanageable.
I ask for your care and guidance.
Grant me honesty, courage, humility, and serenity,
to face that which keeps me from you and others.
I give this life to you to do with as you will.
Thoughts? I’m leaning toward the first one.
As soon as I have settled on a third step prayer I can say daily and truly believe, I will begin step four: writing down my resentments.